Win-win situation.

I can’t remember exactly how it though. All I can confirm is that we did not have a sour relationship afterwards. Still friends up to this moment.

Some times I wonder if I can still give her a booty call.

Here is an update. Since victim #2, there was #3, #4, #5 followed but a change of concept. More on this later, when we come to it.

I’ll try to jot it all down here as my online diary. My little black cuntfused book. My secret keeper.

Best thing is, she’d spread those legs for me be right before going to those other activities. Initially, I thought she was a virgin. Total virgin-like behavior. 1 night in bed thought me different. She’s a very different person when on high. However, she does not like her own body. I remember trying to boobfuck her. She thinks she’s got small boobs so was irritated by my attempt. After coaxing her to give me a blowjob while I boobfuck then she enjoyed it. Cumming on her silky firm tits never felt so good.

My lust for victims was not satisfied. It didn’t last long though. I was soon earning the attention of yet another colleague from a different department. We’ll get to victim #2 soon enough.

1st victim was the youngish 23 year old accounts clerk. She had a boyfriend, but he doesn’t satisfy her emotionally as well as financially. It didn’t take me long to seduce her. First move, a movie where I held her hands. If she is not cold, I am. It doesn’t hurt to show that you are sensitive guys. If you are cold, admit it. If you are not, just do it to touch her you dumbkoff!

Once I got her hand, I proceeded to her cheeks. Face cheeks! Then 1st base, 2nd base, 3rd base and ultimately homerun. How long? A month if memory serves me correctly.

Her stats:-

Height : 5′ 8″
Weight : na
Vitals : 36DD – 28 – 38
Face : 7/10 (a bit like PRC)
FK : not very nice, short tongue
DATY : didn’t try, i’m selfish with this one. just want to bang.
BBBJ : syok 9/10, always gives me one right after work in my office. lets me boobfuck her while she licks too.
FJ : 7/10 (a bit shy, dare not moan loud unless encouraged.

She knows I’m married, but she still wanna tag along. I tell you guys, once a girl falls in love, they can do anything.

I’ve decided to revive this blog. My outlet. I’m not sure who reads this as I’ve only shared this with only two friends. It is however open to anyone.

Why?

Because despite my last posts, I’ve committed the same bloody mistakes again and again and again. It seems like I can’t complain that lonely won’t leave me alone. More like, temptations won’t leave me alone.

Girls seem to easily fall for me even though I don’t do a thing to encourage it. I’m not handsome nor am I driving an Aston Martin.

I’ll reveal what happen in the next few posts. For now, stay tuned. Simply because… Cuntfused is back again.

 Should I just back out? After all, I have my own family. I don’t want to confront her. Too messy. But assumptions are not healthy too. Arghhh I don’t know. Fuck it. I’ll just treat her as a fuck friend. But I can’t. I truly honestly love her.

This is messing me up. I’m back to smoking. Such stupidity. I’m stupid to allow this to kill me. I guess she is enjoying the attention from guys. I guess if she can cheat on her husband with me, she can cheat on me too.

 I’m glad. I still miss her though.

 Later during lunch, I saw her walking out with him. She did not see me. I did not call her or message her about it. After lunch, I asked about hers. With innocent unblinking eyes, she described in detail what she had, who she was with and what happened. Except what she described was a lie. She described everything as if she was eating in the office.

“Did you go out of the office?” I enquired. “Its too hot, I just hung around here in the office.” she said. I smiled. I replied “I must be seeing things then. I thought I saw you holding his arm crossing the road just now.” Her face lost all her pinkness. She’s as white as sheet. I just laughed it off and walked back to my office.

 Try as I might to shrug it off, it bothers me. I know she lied to save my feelings but still, I feel bad. I started smoking again. My chest hurts but I needed it. Nothing else can numb my thoughts. If I could get some weed, I’d have done it.

She tried to apologize later but I changed the topic. I do not want to dwell in the issue because I still and want to trust her. Now I know how my wife will feel if she ever found out about us. I’m a bastard.

 Can someone explain? How is it that when I’m making love with my lover it feels perfect and when I do make love with my wife, I feel guilty? I’ve discussed this with my lover. She says she has no problems like that with her husband.

I’m cuntfused.