She knows I don’t like to see her talking and having lunch with one of our colleagues. Few days ago, I had an appointment for lunch and she did not want to join us. She said she’ll be eating in the office.
Later during lunch, I saw her walking out with him. She did not see me. I did not call her or message her about it. After lunch, I asked about hers. With innocent unblinking eyes, she described in detail what she had, who she was with and what happened. Except what she described was a lie. She described everything as if she was eating in the office.
“Did you go out of the office?” I enquired. “Its too hot, I just hung around here in the office.” she said. I smiled. I replied “I must be seeing things then. I thought I saw you holding his arm crossing the road just now.” Her face lost all her pinkness. She’s as white as sheet. I just laughed it off and walked back to my office.
Try as I might to shrug it off, it bothers me. I know she lied to save my feelings but still, I feel bad. I started smoking again. My chest hurts but I needed it. Nothing else can numb my thoughts. If I could get some weed, I’d have done it.
She tried to apologize later but I changed the topic. I do not want to dwell in the issue because I still and want to trust her. Now I know how my wife will feel if she ever found out about us. I’m a bastard.
